Thursday, December 17, 2009

I've got sunshine

This is my friend Zak and I'm proud of him.
He was on TV yesterday evening (recorded last October though if my memory is exact). And I really like the harmonies by his brother (and Adrien's haircut! loool).

As you can hear, his voice is starting changing (it's more obvious it you listen to his CD "The last memories of my old house" that you must have!). I wish my voice will change soon too... (sigh)

The other live video from the show!

I miss him.
I miss those moments where we were playing ukulele in the park (way before he recorded a CD and became too busy)

You can appreciate my ridiculous haircuts through the years too :

Monday, December 14, 2009

I like hobos. I hate Santa.

There is something strange that you have to know about me.
This is how I fall in love.
And you're probably wondering what particular way it is...

I like voices.

Of course, like every human being, I look at the outfit a little too. But it's not what's the most important with me !!
I already fell in love with people I have never seen but have talked to (Hazel, for example). I often enjoy listening to some friends talking - just for the nice sound of their voice. (I won't give names though..).
Yes, you are right, it's not called "falling in love" - it is probably just the way I get attached to people...
It's totally out of my control. A warm voice will always make me feel better even if I don't listen to the words. And sometimes even the nicest words said with a voice that I don't especially appreciate won't do nothing. I know for sure that someone singing for me will have more chances of ending as a boyfriend than someone saying a compliment and flirting.. lol

I even found some extracts from my myspace blog past year explaining it :
I love Hazel with all my heart. I talked to her on skype for a while. Like I said before, when I feel sad, one little voice could change everything. And she is one of the rare friends who has this power. When she talks to me, she's not only friendly, but she cares about me more than my family (but that's easy because my family doesn't)... [November 07, 2008]

Yesterday night I talked for the first time to Hazel on Skype. I know her since more than a year. I'll never know her name, her age, her job, or any personal information. But I love her. And her voice was really sweet. She is sooooo nice, so kind.
In fact, with me, everything comes with the voice. I like someone because of his voice. It always works like that. That's why I also fall in love easily with singers.
I can't call it love. But I like Hazel. How could you like a mysterious screenname? Like that! I can't wait to hear from her soon. But now I want to talk to Ross, I miss his voice. I don't know why. In a way I'm in love with him too. But I'm always on withdrawal when I don't listen to some voices for a long time. [ November 04, 2008 ]

The reason I say all this is because I recently watched again one of my favorite movies called Shortbus by John Cameron Mitchell (I was fan of him since Hedwig and the angry inch).
There's two of my favorite singers in that movie (and the soundtrack).

Scott Matthew.
Seriously, he looks like a hobo. Hairy and really messy. But he made me love ukulele. His voice is so sweet. I listen to him all the time. And he made me love his style and I find him so damn cute now!! <3
He's less famous than the Herman Dune and many others. But I think he's better than them!!!

Jay Brannan.
No need to introduce him, he's a gay icon. You might remember him (and his body) from Shortbus too...
I still love his voice very much, and even if he doesn't look like a hobo, I love him for sharing my hate of Christmas so much. Listen to his sweet voice please!
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And you, who are the singers making you feel so relaxed, happy and warm ??
What is the feature you really look the most on someone ?
Do you like voices ?

Tell me!

People change, don't they ?

Hi guys,

I'm kinda lazy to post something decent today - but it's the birthday of my long time friend Julia - and so it reminded me this chilly afternoon moment I spent with her at Antibes (French Riviera).
See the picture below. Yeah - I look different - nope? lol
And YES I allow you to laugh at me !

Friday, December 11, 2009

It's a bright day today !!

Hi folks !!!

I'm just very happy and it's a very good day in the big life of the little foxx.

I'm not gonna talk about it on my VEDD of the day, but I called a shrink today to get a first appointment, because I don't think being depressed that much is normal. I'll see him January 18th. I hope he's nice... It'll cost me 41€. Though on the phone I didn't really liked his voice - too "nice", creepy... Let's wait and see.

I also called a great school this afternoon. I'm sick of staying here doing nothing. My sluggishness is just annoying and I'm better than that!!! I deserve to get an education and then a job.
Basically they'll send me some files and I'll send them back to try to apply there. If I'm selected, then during one day I'll have a lost of tests and interviews and maybe then I'll be accepted. I really wish I can go there, because I want to have goals in my life again. Let's just hope and see...

Also, for those who don't know, Hanukkah is starting today...
HanukkahI'm not religious, I'm atheist by choice, but it's not a reason for not wishing you all a great Hanukkah, and if you believe in G.od, thank him for all the great things happening in your life.
Thank him too for the rough times because they make you stronger. And it's no bollocks, I mean it. I believe it, even if I don't believe in G.od.
(I respect everybody's beliefs).

I'm so grateful for all the things I've been through - because they made me the person I am now. Sometimes it's tough, but life is worth the difficulties.

In less than a week I'm going to be at Antibes and I can't wait to see my brother again and spend time with him. I hope that this time our Christmas will be amazing and cheerful.
No no don't get confused, we don't celebrate it for religious reasons either, it's just a way for all the family to get together and appreciate the food!! And anyway, it's a cultural holiday these days, commercial too unfortunately, but not so religious anymore, ain't it?

* Internet withdrawal *

Sunday, December 6, 2009

Where is the button?

Fallen AngelBeing depressed. Again. Watching Ben X. Feeling like him.
Life is like that game. But I didn't create my avatar.
Why can't I make it eradicate from here?
HOW? Where is that "delete" button?

Friday, December 4, 2009


Dears readers,

Today it's Chimel's birthday, so you have to wish him a happy birthday!!!
(in the comments or personally)
In a personal way of course. Here's how I did it :

I'm too exhausted because I didn't sleep lately, so I'm not making great VEDDs - but it's gonna change soon!!!

So far, I went to see the shrink, then I was supposed to go to the skatepark but it's raining all the time and everything is wet.

This week-end I'm going to spend time with Thibaud and Chewie. Maybe playing basketball if the weather allows it.

My internet cure doesn't work well, because I basically spend more time on Youtube or on the computer editing videos.
The great news is that I don't miss any other websites finally... I just miss talking to people, but it's still OK.
I made a great mistake when changing the passwords of my Skype accounts and I really lost them... So I created a new account. And if you have an old skype of mine, you can simply delete it, I can't log in anymore. And yes you can add me, no problems. I was kinda sad at the beginning, now I'm glad because I know it's gonna clear my contact list a little!! hehe

You know where to reach me these days.

Talk to you later!